Trust Issue

Hi all,

So sorry for not updating my blog earlier..these past 2 weeks, I feel kinda gloomy, sad, depressed and everything related to it..despair, pain in ur heart in ur head yada yada yada...

Why?? I can't quite figure it out yet..maybe I keep remembering past experiences..which hurts a lot.

And still..after all these times..I just can't get it out of my mind..maybe for some people it might be considered as small matter but for me, no such thing as a small matter when it could ruin my relationship, life whatsoever.

Yes, I apologized for being rude as I dun wanna die in sin towards human. But inside my heart, it still ache. I just don't know, I can't even think how someone could said such thing, such inappropriate things. Joke or no joke, it doesn't really matter, you just have to take care of your manners.

Hmmm..there's nothing I could do. People say past is past, but don't u dare say that u have forgotten what's past..deep inside, and occasionally, u will still think about that thing. that person. that mistakes.

Now, I just wanna pray to Allah to ease my pain and soothe my soul as I just don't know how to overcome this.

I still hate her. That's for sure. Forgiving doesn't mean a friendship neither to forget.


I just wish, one day, u have a taste of your own actions and on that day, u'll think of me.

Most importantly, u'll ache like I do.

Then, it's equal.